HAPPY NEW YEAR

Well the time is on us again as we bring in a New Year. I've been so busy this week. Not had much time to prepare this blog.

Just wanted to wish you all the very best for 2009 folks. Have a great New Year xxx

Will you all be hallucinating seeing elephants tomorrow I wonder. Just thought I'd put a picture up of Rab. C. Nesbitt sporting one of his hangovers! Check out the string vest ewww!!

Noel Edmonds Had Me On My Knees..

....in floods of blubbering tears. Yes I didn't think the man had it in him. On my knees I tell you. I had recorded his Christmas Present t.v. show on SKY (its repeated all through this season) and decided, while finishing off wrapping pressies I'll watch that.

The whole experience of having presents on the floor, me on my knees paper scissors and cello tape everywhere.....very flustering. As the programme unfolded with Noels seasonal do gooding I was in tears. Don't know what the feck I've wrapped and who's getting what. My bah humbug attitude has turned into "Ah I'll add some money to the Xmas cards too!"(I have a thing with money and envelopes you know). While in the process of playing God with family members I've reflected on who in the family have been saints and sinners. OHHH please, how do I shake the Noel Edmonds spell off.

All those adults and kids receiving special gift for heroic acts of bravery such as;ADHD Alzheimer's kid following phone instructions to help his mum before ambulance arrives. The father and son battling cancer or, the woman who's father had a brain hemorrhage she visited every day with a 150 miles daily hospital journey. While still managing to tend to the chickens in her back garden and husband who is due to die any day of a terminal illness. I KID YOU NOT. I'm not going to tell you the surprises they received. You will have to watch it.

Fortunately Laura Lee text me before I crumpled further. The text simply asked"How are you Missus feeling OK". All I can say is bless her. Obviously I tried to keep the text brief and basically text back. Noel Edmonds, I'm a wretch!!! Ha Ha.

To think its only Monday as I ponder the rest of the week ahead for myself and everyone at this time.

This bastard Noel has got me thinking about everyone. I was blubbering when I read Rhia's Xmas message blog yesterday and was so touched by her kind words. There are so many names and thoughts that come to mind as I think about everyone at Xmas. So needless to say folks..... Have a wonderful Xmas. I appreciate many a fight can occur when too much family are together in one room but hopefully it is nothing that needs police or ambulance assistance! For those having pyjama day or on their own...how lucky you are to have such peace and my idea of bliss.

Whatever you all decide to do over Christmas. I send you all my warmest wishes.

Little Black Dress

Well its the party season and ladies we all have them in our wardrobes. Yes the little black dress. Frankly, they are for every occasion and that's why I love mine. I looked through my wardrobe tonight and never realised I have quite a few. I'd never part with them they are timeless. Every girl has to have a LBD, its a rule of fashion dating back to the 1920's. Coco Chanel is the founder of what every woman has hanging in their wardrobe today. No wardrobe is complete without it. In 1926 Gabrielle “Coco” Chanel published a picture of a short, simple black dress in Vogue. It was calf-length, straight, and decorated only by a few diagonal lines. Vogue called it “Chanel’s Ford.” Like the Model T, the little black dress was simple and accessible for women of all social classes. Vogue also said that the LBD would become “a sort of uniform for all women of taste.”

Famous little black dresses
Audrey Hepburn as Holly Golightly in Breakfast at Tiffany’s epitomized the Chanel ideal for wearing little black dresses, accessorized with pearls, as was frequently seen throughout the early 1960s. Betty Boop, a cartoon character based in part on the 1920s' "It Girl" Clara Bow, was drawn wearing a little black dress in her early films, though with Technicolor, Betty's dress became red.[citation needed]
Wallis Warfield Simpson, Duchess of Windsor, was known to own several little black dresses and said much in praise of the garments. One quote of the Duchess: “When a little black dress is right, there is nothing else to wear in its place.” Edith Piaf, the French folk icon, performed in a black sheath dress throughout her career: for this habit she was nicknamed “little black sparrow.” It was thought that the dress helped audiences focus more on Piaf's singing and less on her appearance.

So I'm going for a couple of cocktails after work tomorrow and a lovely fitted well tailored black dress just the recipe for me. I thought I'd be forever tying to decide what the hell to wear. So I'm jazzing it up with a few accessories. Eat your heart out Trinny and Susannah.

To be perfectly honest...I'm a girl who loves shopping but the thought of buying something new tomorrow at short notice. Not much time to browse, listening to yet another damn Xmas song in each shop makes me sigh. I will off course be dragged along with the maddening crowd soon enough as I hit Edinburgh High Street this weekend. So Nooooo the decisions made. I'm so pleased with myself.

Rose Tinted Glasses

I don't like the look of them!

Definition:

rose-tinted glasses (British, American & Australian, British)

if someone looks at something through rose-tinted glasses, they see only the pleasant parts of it. She has always looked at life through rose-tinted glasses.

Maybe that's where I'm at right now, or where I was until reality gave me a slight kick up the arse. It's all a bit disturbing. It involves a guy, not a client but an instant attraction sort of thing. Non sexual love. Think I had them glasses on until my Escort work brought the reality of trying to conduct anything normal regarding a relationship and it's implications into focus. Not that he would be living of my immoral earnings (don't like the sound of that either). Aren't escorts allowed relationships, why is it a taboo a "no no?". I know ladies that are happily married or in loving relationships but I guess I've never looked at things closely. Living in my happy floozie bubble.

I'm honestly not that brave with relationships, got a history of unfaithfulness. Or complete loyalty betrayed. Can't be arsed, nothing complicated which most inevitably does end up complex. I like my white linen bed sheets all to myself thank you very fucking much.

I feel it's all or nothing. No in between. Why be unfaithful for free? I'd be back Escorting wouldn't I? It is wonderful I've found someone I have no interest in charging a fee to. He laughed at that when we met for a date and stated he wasn't offering money.

I kinda get the feeling I'm looking for answers (just thinking out loud bear with me dear readers). Answers I never seem to find on the whole "love thing".

Do you only realise what you had when its gone? I dislike "What if's"

Ok there's lots of what I dislike, what about things I like? I like that feeling I get its a warm tingly feeling...no not an orgasm. There's two sides to it. That warm sensation but also the flipside where I can feel complete loss and pining. I'm going to openly contradict myself it's a SHIT SHIT SHIT feeling don't try this a home folks lol. How confused am I right now!

I'm leaving myself open aren't I? This is a rare moment for me. I guess it's biting the bullet and taking a monumental risk. If I fuck up I've done this in an undignified manner and that's quite seductive the whole shameful indignant way of being that draws me to "the other side". The other side being civvy street. When have I needed to compromise I'm use to my cake and eating it! Do I go for the impossible as I can set myself up for that, or push guys away and make me impossible.

I've got this genuine need to know and don't want to have a "what if" around for me in this life. It's an adventure! Sometimes a quest that leads into a dark forest of not knowing the road, no map or route planner. Just want this fog to clear so I'm on solid ground.

I'll keep you all posted.